Its about 11:00am as I write this. I've had one of the strangest mornings I can remember (seasoned pastors will wonder what is so strange). I'm trying to reflect on the broad range of emotions one can feel in 4 hours.
My morning started at our Thursday Morning Theology Breakfast around 7am. It was a sweet time of meditation on chapters 3 and 4 of Calvin's Institutes. I was stunned by how theology is best learned in community with other believers.
Then, as I opened my Bible to Eph. 5 in order to begin the day's work on my Sunday morning sermon, my phone rang. I was about to meditate on what it means to redeem the time in 5:16, and God wanted to show me just how evil the days really are. The call was from a sweet sister in the Lord in a neighboring town who was following the Lord by making a request of me. She wanted me to go to the local ICU and share the gospel with a dying man. Her concern for his soul was refreshing.
So, Jonathan and I went to the ICU around 9am, put on hospital gloves, and tried to love on this 36-year old man breathing with the help of a ventelator. He is dying. He responded with nods of the head and the opening and closing of his eyes. I read Psalm 34 in hopes that God would revive his soul by the power of His Word.
As we walked back to the car, the snow began to fall hard.
I got back to the office and sorrowfully continued the work on Eph. 5:15-21. Just a few minutes into my thoughts, Jeanna called and needed my help at the house. At home, I got the joy of introducing my 2-year old dauther to snow. We threw snow balls, took pictures, and jumped up and down with excitment.
Now here I am. Do I weep at the thought of death and dying or do I laugh at the memory of seeing my daughter throw snow at me?
Here are some of Jonathan Edwards’ Resolutions regarding time:
5. Resolved, never to lose one moment of time; but improve it the most profitable way I possibly can.
6. Resolved, to live with all my might, while I do live.
7. Resolved, never to do anything, which I should be afraid to do, if it were the last hour of my life.
17. Resolved, that I will live so as I shall wish I had done when I come to die.
52. I frequently hear persons in old age say how they would live, if they were to live their lives over again: Resolved, that I will live just so as I can think I shall wish I had done, supposing I live to old age.